I’ve felt suffocated lately by a snarl of negative feelings. As I sat in my meditation loft last night, with a candle burning before me, a little voice said, “Burn the Fear card.” (There was a deck of Mixed Emotions cards beside me.)
“I’m not going to burn the Fear card,” I thought. “It’ll ruin my whole deck.” But I could burn a copy! So I climbed down my loft ladder, made copies of the cards that described how I felt, cut them out and got a metal bowl. Back in the loft, I did EFTon my feelings of desperation, fear, and betrayal and then burned the corresponding “cards.” (I deliberately didn’t put a “Betrayed” card in the Mixed Emotions deck, so I made my own by writing the word on a slip of paper).
At this rate, it will take me many nights to burn through all my negative emotions. But you know what?
I already feel better.
Here are the feelings in my burn pile:
Afraid and desparate
Depressed and overwhelmed
Disappointed and frustrated
Discouraged and worried
Vulnerable and panicky
Illustrations are by Kris Wiltse from the Mixed Emotions card deck.
